Beginning teachers want to change the world, put their hearts into their work, matter to someone, somehow. I’ve realized that there are limits, big limits, to the good I do through my teaching. And when it comes down to changing a life, having an impact on a child’s future, a wise co-worker told me to expect to make a difference once a year. One child a year.
At first it sounds callous, minimizing. Realize, however, that we’re not talking about everyday teaching. I teach the entire class to read, to write, to handle long division. But a life-changing impact? A difference that changes the route students will take, puts them on a path to success — or not — doesn’t happen nearly as often as idealists think.
Now, in my thirteenth year of teaching, I wonder who those children are and were. I may never know. A few may touch base with me again. Most won’t or can’t. Many don’t even realize that a teacher, any teacher, turned them around and set them in the right direction.
The victim of bullying who learned to take control might join the list. Then there’s the slacker with a high IQ who earned his first D or F and finally learned study skills. The late bloomer who discovered her favorite book ever on my shelves and realized she loved to read may feel that link as well. But those are the easy ones.
The child whose family was evicted from their apartment, the family I helped find services for the homeless, won’t ever know that I made a difference. Her parents are too busy keeping a roof over their heads and feeding the kids to think about teachers, and that’s exactly where their priorities belong. The depressed adolescents that I referred for help? The counselor made a bigger difference than I did, and again that’s just as it should be. The student who struggled with math and finally, finally “got” fractions under my watch, may be the one child for that year. Or not. It might have been the quiet student, the one who sat in the back and listened intently, absorbing everything he heard, but never saying a word.
So I keep on plugging, planning for the class, differentiating for those who need it, and hoping. I hope as well that maybe, just maybe, I made a difference for someone, somehow, each year that I’ve taught.
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>Caution: Low Flying Planes
>I stopped to fill the minivan with gas before the prices rose to the mythical four point oh oh. No time to wash the windshield, not if I wanted to pick up a cinnamon hazelnut coffee at the convenience store. Hey, there are priorities, ‘en so? (Sorry, slipped into Wisconsineze sprinkled with Yooper for a moment. Der hey. Yah.)
Nourishment, er, coffee in hand, I headed off to an early morning staff meeting at school where we got the news that inspired today’s title: we were to expect small aircraft flying over our school building and grounds that morning.
They weren’t really flying over us, exactly. The plane was spraying an organic pesticide (is that an oxymoron?) on the park next door to eradicate an alien pest we call the Gypsy Moth. Nowhere near as glamorous as the gypsy known as Esmeralda, the larvae to these moths will destroy a tree within two springs if given the chance. Our DNR doesn’t want to give them the chance.
The official memo and voice mail, sent out by recorded phone call the night before, had encouraging words like like, “we will keep our students in school, with windows shut…” “…formulation is generally not harmful to people, pets, or other wildlife species.”
“Homeowners in these areas are also encouraged to stay indoors during the treatment…”
Our district attempted to get the spraying scheduled for a weekend or after school is out, but the Powers That Be said they couldn’t wait.
It was a little creepy for my class, sitting in the windowless computer lab hearing the plane swooping over our heads repeatedly. My students were only 3 years old when the World Trade Centers were attacked, but they’ve learned enough to make them feel a wee bit nervous about the situation. I explained it, including the fact that it wasn’t supposed to be dangerous, and that the spraying would be done before recess. Again, priorities, ‘ey? The DNR rep had fortunately scheduled the spraying intentionally for times when there would be no students outside.
After recess, all students washed their hands in case they’d had contact with playground equipment coated with the pesticide. The DNR on-site dude said something to the principal that she felt she must pass on to us.
“He did mention you might want to have your cars washed as it might leave a film on them.”
I knew there was a good reason I didn’t wash the windshield this morning!
>Summertime, and the reading is easy
>Summer Reading Lists are here! I actually don’t make a list for my students. Instead, I encourage them (strongly encourage them) to sign up for the local public library’s reading program. I’m making my own list and checking it twice, though. Summer is a time when I can read for pleasure more than a little.
I’ve found it’s a little dangerous to go to a store while I’m craving new reading material. It’s much too easy to buy lots of books. That’s not a bad thing (who can have too many books? not me), but it can play havoc with the credit card and the family budget.
I have a graduate class, independent and by correspondence, to complete within one year’s time. No problem; I plan to finish most or all of it this summer. I also have software that teaches lipreading. This is a skill that may keep me teaching longer, even as my hearing loss progressively worsens. Both of these projects will take time.
But every summer I make a point of taking time to read for fun. Whether frivolous or serious, heavy or light, realistic or fantasy, I need to read. Amigo and I will make multiple trips to the library, I’ll trade in stacks of books at the secondhand store, and yes, I’ll make a few (too many, probably) trips to the chain bookstore and our local independent.
And lo! Behold! I made an order at Amazon two days ago. I had a gift card, so I used it. On their way here are Isabella Moon and Surreal South by Laura Benedict, Remember Me by Sophie Kinsella, and Sleeping with Ward Cleaver by Jenny Gardiner. My June supply awaits. Now I just need to stock up on coffees….
>You said what ate your homework?
>Teaching: it’s political.
>I get my news from a variety of sources: my local newspaper, news websites online, and more. I find people who are like-minded online, too. This primary election — you know, the longest one in recent history — isn’t as dull as some say. In fact, even as I worry that Party conflicts may provide the opposition with too much ammunition, I’m finding it downright fascinating.
Teaching is a political profession. Besides the internal district politics, administrative power and control, my daily work is affected by decisions made in the state capital and in Washington, D.C. When my friends tell me that they just want to “close their doors and teach,” I want to grab them by the shoulders, look them in the eyes, and say, “You can’t shut out the laws! You need to help make them! And change them!” And then I want to go home and write a letter to my senators and congressional reps.
A few years ago Rod Paige, then Secretary of Education, called my national association (the NEA) a nasty name. He asserted that our tactics were terrorist in nature. I wrote letters. I sent emails. Many, many educators did the same. By calling teachers terrorists, he put us in the category of those with whom our government is at war. This kind of outlook in the Bush cabinet has been very damaging to public education.
Now the NEA (National Education Association) is looking for slogans to help publicize the need for professional wages in education. I have a few ideas, and I know there are clever educators who can access their inner salesperson and come up with a really good campaign. What do you think, boys and girls? Women and men? Ladies and gentlemen of the classroom and beyond? Educating everyone takes everyone — in the village and beyond — and it’s not cheap.
My slogan thoughts so far:
Do the math: pay like a pro.
No Classroom Left Unfunded
A “free” Public Education is priceless, not costly.
There are slogans built into existing quotes, too:
If you think education is expensive, try ignorance.
But for now, I’ll keep informed on the upcoming election and I’ll keep writing creative and effective lesson plans to connect with students in every way I can. I feel fortunate to work in a great field, one where I can make a difference. My votes can help ensure support from the legislatures and the White House.
Yours can, too.
>Drain the swamp. Drain the swamp.
>I am looking forward to our family vacation.
That said, I still need to teach four more weeks, grade a few more (lots more) papers, complete a big batch of NCLB-related paperwork, complete a full set of progress reports, and clean/straighten/ close up the classroom.
And… help Amigo with his homework. Keep track of his finals schedule, figure out his transportation for that week, and get him there and home on time.
Move La Petite home from school. This might not be as bad as it’s been in the past, since she’s not living in a dorm any more. She has a year lease on the apartment, and most of the furniture and other large items will stay there. We’ll just have to move her mattress, her stereo, her clothing, her shoes, her rabbits… well, maybe it will be a big trip after all.
And then, when the school year is actually over and I’ve locked the classroom door and left it behind, I need to get the family ready to travel.
One of Husband’s many sayings is this: “When you’re up to your neck in alligators, it’s hard to remember that your goal was to drain the swamp.”
I think I need to rephrase the first sentence of this post. I will look forward to vacation the day we leave and everything else is done. Then, and only then, will I be able to breathe freely and easily. I’ll be ready to leave my own “swamp” behind.
>April Showers bring May — flowers?
>PTA decided to extend Teacher Appreciation Week to be two weeks long. They asked kids to bring in flowers. Despite the poor quality photo from my cell phone camera, I think you can see that I feel appreciated. Yes, that’s my messy desk behind the vase. Hey, it’s May. My workload is at its heaviest right now. In other words, it’s the perfect time for kids to give me flowers.

P.S. PTA gave us “breakfast” in the lounge at recess, including Starbucks coffee. W00T!!
>Compost: Let it happen!
>Hi, I’m Daisy, and I compost in my backyard.
You could call me an urban composter, although my home city is more suburban in size and style. I have a bin in the backyard, a bucket in the kitchen, and a small pitchfork and shovel in the garage. These are my tools, and this is my story.
I gather more kitchen garbage than I ever thought possible and dump it in the bin. Layered with grass clippings, weeds, and the occasional pile of leaves, the mixture, well, rots. Slowly but surely, it decomposes and becomes again one with the soil. I stir it once in a while with a pitchfork or turn the layers with a shovel, but that’s about all. Compost, as they say, happens. And it often happens not because of my efforts, but regardless of what I do.
My bin is simple. It looks like a large black garbage can, but it has no bottom. The lid is easy for me to take off, but somehow the raccoons haven’t gotten into it. Husband bought it for me several years ago, assuring me that it is made from recycled plastics.
Regular ingredients in my compost include coffee grounds, banana peels, apple cores, potato peelings, and melon rinds. Children prefer not to eat the heel of the bread? Compost. Bag of chips down to the crumbs? Compost. Shucking corn on the cob from the farmer’s market? Compost. Some of my more unusual ingredients have included wax paper covered with cookie crumbs, the paper wrapper from a fast food sandwich, and paper towels used to wipe up a spill. We’ll add small amounts of grass clippings because large layers tend to mildew and not mix well with the rest. The contents of our pet rabbit’s litter box can go in the compost on occasion, but again, not too much or it simply won’t decompose completely. In the autumn, the fallen leaves will provide the final top layer before winter sets in and it‘s too cold for the process to work.
There is very little that can’t go in the compost. Eggshells might work in warmer climates; here, they still look like eggshells months later. Meat, dairy, and seafood are not good ingredients because they decompose slowly or because the smell will attract wildlife you might rather not host in your backyard.
I was chatting with a teaching colleague in August, discussing the fast pace of our jobs and how weeding and composting give me such pleasure. My coworker, an environmental science teacher, understood completely. She knew that sometimes, we just have to sit back and let nature’s cycles take life at their own speed.
In our climate (northeastern Wisconsin), composting only works for about half the year. Every spring we spread the previous year’s compost on the garden, and then the whole cycle starts again.
Yet, in this fast paced, oft-wasteful world, it feels good to take action on a small scale. Composting does that for me.
This post is a reprint of a guest post written last September. I’m getting ready to spread the spring compost layer, and it feels great. We had a frost warning a few nights ago, reminding me not to plant too soon, but the compost and rototilling can happen any time.
>That’s My Bag
>It’s the end of the solo-ensemble festival season, and I cleaned out my Judge’s Bag last night. This is the bag I pack in February and leave packed until early May. On those early Saturday mornings, I just pick up my bag and hit the road, knowing I will have everything I need when I get there. A quick stop for Jo to Go coffee, and I’m on the road.
I took out:
- Twelve sharpened pencils (with assorted logos of music stores and universities)
- One pen (with a University logo on it)
- One lip gloss
- One sample sized tube of hand lotion
- One small bottle of hand sanitizer
- One package of peppermint Tic Tacs
- A handful of cough drops
- A small package of hearing aid batteries
- A reusable manila envelope, 9 x 12 size
These will get redistributed between my purse, the medicine cabinet, and my desk at school. The pencils will probably end up with students who need them.
But the bag is not empty. For next year, I left:
- Two empty folders (from music stores)
- The binder containing my Adjudicators’ Handbook
- Two thank you notes, one from a student and one from a parent group
- My Master Adjudicator name tag
- My name stamp for “signing” 40-50 ratings forms every festival
- And one pen and one pencil to get me started next winter.
And in other “bag” news, I knew there was a good reason I didn’t buy a new purse when my other one broke. Check out the MOMocrats! I may bake cookies, but I don’t stay home and have teas.
>You just can’t leave me home alone.
>I bake bread when I’m home watching a sick teenager. Doesn’t everyone? Well, maybe not. I cheat, sort of, and use the breadmaker. My breadmaker has a timer, but I rarely use it. I’d rather be home to smell the odors, I mean the aroma of the rising and baking bread. Today I made Margalit’s Oatmeal Honey Wheat bread recipe. It’s delicious!
When I’m at home and I’m healthy, I pack my schoolbag with paperwork. I get some of that done without the pressure of watching the clock for the next bell.
Sometimes I spend money online. This worries Husband a little. Today I registered for a 3-credit graduate class. It’s a bargain, and I hope it’s not a “cheap” class in its quality. I’ve talked to other teachers who have taken classes from this source, and they all felt it had been worth their time. I certainly hope mine is.
I have a wishlist of books sitting by me, and an Amazon gift code waiting to be used. Hmmm. It’s really easy to overspend on books. That’s what’s stopping me. Before I buy any more, I’d like to talk to my coworkers about establishing a book exchange. We had one at my previous school, and I contributed and borrowed frequently. In fact, I think I bought more new books than I had in the past (rather than second hand) because I knew I’d be able to borrow several others, therefore saving money in the end. If enough teachers want it and the principal approves, it’ll be a great sharing opportunity for our staff.
I also read a lot more blogs than usual. In the evening, my normal “surfing” time, I’m often tired and sometimes moody from the day’s struggles. By day, with a little more coffee, er, energy, I can surf the political blogs and make reasonably intelligent comments.
Housework. Yes, I get a little more housework done while I’m caffeinated and have a bit of discretionary time. Bunny cage gets cleaned, wastebaskets emptied, and more.
No, you just can’t leave me home alone. I clean, I bake, I read, and if this keeps up, I might spend money — on books.

