Radiation, At Last

I shouldn’t be excited. If I’m honest with myself, I’d tell myself I’m simply relieved. My radiation appointments are finally scheduled. At the sim appointment, when they prepared me and set the settings (that’s the technical medical term, set the settings, haha), the nurses told me I’d get a call in two to three weeks. Three weeks to the day minus one I got the call, and we filled the calendar.

Meanwhile, I’m watching these incredible Olympic athletes. How about that women’s hockey team?! And six of them are Wisconsin Badgers, too! And our figure skaters, speed skaters (Wisconsin’s Jordan Stolz!), snowboarders, and more. Wisconsin is really well represented in the games this time. Odd accent and all, our midwestern athletes are representing the nation well.

I’ll plan to keep my mind off cancer by watching the elite competition in Milan. Good timing all around.

Share and Enjoy !

Shares

Oh, Sourdough

I have sourdough starter in my freezer. I plan to thaw it and get started baking sourdough bread. Someday.

I planned to start last fall. Thanksgiving is a big deal in our family, and we host at our house, so I decided to wait until after Thanksgiving to get the starter out and, well, start it.

Then cancer hit. Mammogram with suspicious results, followed by ultrasound, followed by biopsies. The timing wasn’t the greatest – is there ever a good time for cancer? Nope. I had the biopsies the Friday before Thanksgiving, and the doctor told me I’d hear results in three to five days. Business days, I was sure, and given that my biopsies were late in the day on a Friday, followed by a short holiday week, I resigned myself to the possibility that I wouldn’t know until after the festivities.

The diagnosis came the day before Thanksgiving. Wednesday morning.

The sourdough starter stayed in the freezer.

The month of December was full of appointments, scans, blood tests, and more appointments. Surgery finally came on December 31.

The sourdough starter remained in its corner of the freezer.

January included follow-up appointments, more blood tests, scans, and tissue tests, followed by meetings with two new doctors: radiologist and oncologist. Good news: no chemo needed! News news: radiation recommended. Another appointment to set up and prepare for radiation – and then waiting two to three weeks for the phone call that will schedule my radiation visits.

Today marks two weeks from that appointment. No phone call yet, and the sourdough starter still waits in the freezer.

When I’m done with radiation and start maintaining with medication, etc., I’ll start my post-cancer regimen with a new project: sourdough bread.

Share and Enjoy !

Shares

Oh, the Weather Outside –

Headlines on the national news and weather channels are all about the weather. “Major storm coming! Are you prepared?”

Chuck’s Texas cousins are ready. One of them posted a picture of her stockpile of toilet paper and firewood. Oh, wait, that was a meme. Never mind. I’m sure they have a few bottles of wine and cozy blankets.

We, on the other hand, did nothing to prepare. In the interest of clarity, our forecast wasn’t for snow, ice, or sleet. Our forecast was for bitter, bitter cold. How cold is it? Every area district closed their schools, and I didn’t even have to check all the channels to find that out. Many churches and businesses closed as well, and some cut their hours. The vintage mall that we like closed early yesterday after their “slowest day ever” and decided to stay closed today – a wise decision on their part.

But preparations? Well, we did make sure all of our windows were closed completely and locked, but we did that weeks ago. All the shades and curtains are closed to provide an extra layer of insulation – something we do almost every night. A humidifier is running in the den, the room we live in the most. I haven’t turned on the gas fireplace (yet), but I may use it tonight. In summary, nothing unusual. And we stayed home. Not.

I wish we could have stayed home. Chuck considered calling in “cold” for his volunteer shift at the local history museum, but since his car started (almost) willingly, he did the shift. On my part, cancer took charge. I had an appointment for a radiation simulation; a scan to set up for radiation treatments. Those treatments will start in a few weeks. Hopefully, by then the weather will be better.

Share and Enjoy !

Shares

The Garden Will Come – Later

The nurse was going through the post-op instructions for my upcoming lumpectomy. Most is common sense, of course. And then she pointed out the list of restrictions, or What Not To Do.

  • No lifting: nothing more than 10 pounds, approximately equal to a gallon of milk.
  • No repetitive motion: Avoid vacuuming, rowing, raking, gardening with affected arm.

Raking? Gardening? I told her I was lucky to be having this surgery in the bleak midwinter. If this were happening in June or July, I’d be upset that I couldn’t garden, or (as my kids used to say), playing in the dirt.

By the time spring comes, I hope to be gaining enough strength to get out in the backyard and till the soil for the raised bed plot. Beans, zucchini, carrots – we’ll see what else has potential. The raspberry patch needs weeding, too.

The other project will require lifting and repetitive motion. My table full of buckets, the ultimate raised bed, will need a lot of work. The potting soil from last year needs straining. Amigo and Chuck bought me a nice soil strainer for Christmas! Woot! Each bucket needs the holes enlarged and a stack of pine cones or wine corks to help the soil drain. When the buckets are ready, they’ll go in the table so I can plant tomatoes, peppers, lettuce, spinach, and much, much more.

The challenge this year will be starting seeds. I hope to bring my small tabletop greenhouses up from the basement before my surgery. I’ll bring potting soil and seed starter in the house, too. That way, the heavy lifting will be done and I can start tomato and pepper seeds in February or March, all depending on the level of pain and weakness at that point.

All in all, folks, I plan to grow food when spring arrives, cancer or no cancer.

 

Share and Enjoy !

Shares

In Which Cancer fills the Calendar

“What fresh hell is this?” –attributed to Dorothy Parker

Cancer has filled our calendar, and at the same time, too much is still unknown. My surgery date is set, two pre-op procedures are scheduled, and the follow-up appointment is on the chart.

And yet, it’s not enough. Chuck volunteers at the local history museum. He’s a docent, and a darn good one. He needs to give the museum director his availability for January, and he can’t. There’s too much pending. I expect radiation therapy to follow the surgery, but that’s too far out to call.

On the positive side, we don’t have to reschedule Christmas. That may not sound like a big deal to some, but when there’s a person with autism in the household, it matters.

I’m the prep in advance type, and this year I’ve been even more busy than ever with shopping and wrapping. Now that I know my surgery is a few days post-Christmas, I can relax a little. A little, mind you. I expect at least one package on my doorstep in the next few days, and I need to pick up chocolate for Christmas Eve. I already have books.

So, readers, on we go. There’s more anxiety around the corner, but at least the gifts are wrapped. Mostly. Wish me luck, folks.

Share and Enjoy !

Shares

Upright and Not Crying

According to social media, there’s a Norwegian saying that works like “Not unwell, thank you” or “I’m okay, I guess.”

When asked, “How are you? How ya doing?” a Norwegian might respond, “Upright and not crying.”

According to family genealogy research, Ancestry, and the now defunct 21 and Me, I have a fair amount of Norwegian in my background. I could adopt this as my new script. For example, I walked into my audiologist’s office for new hearing aids – in my world, that’s exciting! He greeted me with “Welcome back! How are you today?” Upright and Not Crying would have worked perfectly. The new technology is always fun to learn and enjoyable to start putting to use. I told him that despite my breast cancer diagnosis, I was happy to get the new amplifiers in my ears. The new hearing aids provided a positive moment in a world that right now has me surrounded by negatives.

So far today, I’ve experienced a drive home from Milwaukee in bitter cold weather with coffee and a Denver omelet on a croissant to keep me warm and make an effort to eat the opponent: Broncos. See what I did there? Go! Pack! Go!

I’m unpacked, sipping cappuccino, and nibbling on cookies. Now it’s time to remain upright and watch the Packers.

Share and Enjoy !

Shares

Makes Me Stronger? Ugh.

I posted this almost 10 years ago.

I shared this with my coworkers the year I had a stent inserted in a major artery and my friend had breast cancer. I thought it would be appropriate to bring it up again.

Both of us urged our coworkers “Don’t wait!” She’d had a phone call from the doctor on the first day of school and said “What? I don’t have time for another mammogram tomorrow. Can I come in a month?” Fortunately, they said she needed to come in ASAP, and she did. My own “Don’t wait!” came after a catheterization showed my right interior carotid was 97% blocked. If I’d said oh, wait until June when school is out, I hate to think of how much worse it could have been.

So here I am, now looking at my own case of breast cancer, waiting for genetic testing results that will help determine whether a lumpectomy will be sufficient.

Dear Whatever Is Trying to Kill Me; knock it off!!

Share and Enjoy !

Shares

Still Eating Chicago!

From a Local Bakery

Bear Claws! We ordered these ahead and picked them up this morning. They’re cherry with almonds and delicious. If it looks like one is already cut in half and eaten, you’re right. I didn’t get in with the camera quickly enough; Chuck had already grabbed one.

On another topic, we have our Christmas tree! The tree farmers named their trees this year. Ours is Grayson. 🙂

Share and Enjoy !

Shares

Eating the Opponent: Chicago Bears

My calendar is filling up with more appointments than I’m used to having. Not all are cancer related – one is for my new hearing aids. Yippee! I get excited when a new pair of hearing aids is ready. I update my Ears, as I call them, every seven or eight years, depending on my needs. It’s nice to have something positive coming up.

As life goes on, so does Eating the Opponent. This week my Packers face the Chicago Bears, and lo and behold, the Bears are playing well this season! Yikes! We approached the game with Chicago style hot dogs – all beef franks dragged through the garden, as they say.

No ketchup. Nope.

The dill pickles are homemade (mine, of course), and the jalapeno pepper came from my own garden. (I skipped the pepper. I’m not a spicy hot person.)

On Saturday we’ll pick up our order of Bear Claws pastries from the local bakery. Bear Claws and coffee should set us up for a Sunday afternoon victory.

As always, Go! Pack! Go!

Share and Enjoy !

Shares

Story Map: Rising Action

When I taught reading and language arts, we often mapped the story line of the literature we were reading. My cancer journey feels like that. The mammogram and the biopsy that followed it set up the exposition: the beginning of the story. The problem or conflict in the story line is, of course, the cancer itself.

Yesterday’s appointment set me up on a path to getting this treated. The surgeon looked over the scans and pointed out the cancerous growth. She introduced the surgical options – lumpectomy or mastectomy – and the odds of success for either.

The surgical office also offered me the chance to participate in a study of cancer treatments. I recently participated in a study comparing the accuracy of 2D vs. 3D mammograms; that study may help other women get more accurate screenings in the future. With the future in mind, of course I said yes.

Now I’m working around my calendar and the craziness that cancer creates. Genetic counseling. Blood draw for the genetic testing. Blood draw for the treatment study. Create an online account for the study. Confirm the next blood draw for the study. Add follow up appointment with surgeon to finalize surgery choice and schedule the date of the surgery. Tentatively, surgery is penciled in a few days before Christmas.

Back to the story map. The rising action continues. The angle on the map is not very sharp – yet – but it’s definitely rising. The line will jump when the surgery is scheduled and we add an oncologist to the mix.

In story mapping, the piece concludes with a complete resolution. These resolutions don’t have to be Hallmark movie happy, but I hope mine leans that way. Meanwhile, I have presents to wrap.

Share and Enjoy !

Shares